Tuesday, 24 May 2016

25 years of my life

25 years. Probably more than half of my life is over. Honestly, I don't even want to live a long life in this mean world. If I evaluate my life then I was an average student in my academic life but I ended up being an MBA. As far as my professional life is concerned then I have ten months of experience in automobile industry, nine months of experience in denim industry and since last one and a half year I am working as an accountant in New India Assurance. I am a freelance writer since last one and a half year. In that one and a half year, I have written a book called 6° with 20 odd bloggers & I have been part of India's first coffee table book for bloggers. I am a freelance designer since last eight months and trying to be a social media influencer.

I am good at one more thing apart from these and that thing is cricket. Actually cricket is above everything for me. If you will wake me up from my death bed and ask me to play cricket, I will be ready for it. This was about my professional life. Now let me talk about me as a person. As a person, I am sensitive, strong headed guy. It is a dangerous combination. It makes me blunt and straight forward. So I am on everyone's face. I am very possessive for the people whom I love. Not only that, I am very honest and loyal to them as well. I don't give up on anything easily. I am simple at most of the things. Small things in life matter a lot for me. I believe that life is lived in moments. Though we run behind the materialistic things in life but life is actually lived in moments. All the materialistic things are going to be here only. Only thing we are going to take with us are the moments we lived. The moments we cherished. Signing the first copy of my book was the biggest moment in my life.

Long walk at night with my father, long drive with my mother, calming my brother's nerves in his crucial matches, whacking the ball over the fielder's head, uprooting the middle stump of the batsman, writing 4 blog posts in a day, hang outs with friends are the moments I will always cherish. There will be more such moments in my life and hopefully bigger ones. We show off materialistic things when we meet friends after a long time but the fact is that they were with us when we were nothing. So we should relive and laugh on old memories instead of showing off the materialism. Biggest thing one can donate in this world is smile. And that smile can come through even smallest of the things. I try to donate smiles with whatever I have because life is not fair to everyone and I am blessed that I am leading such a good life.

I am blessed with the best parents in the whole world but they deserve a better son than me. As at times, I take them for granted. Life hasn't been a fairy tale for me. I have been ignored, humiliated, discarded and isolated by my own people. People whom I gave the most importance, whom I considered my family played with my feelings and cheated me. They shown me their true colours when I needed them the most. I have no regrets that I gave them the importance, considered them as family & best friends & valued them. I simply gave them everything I had, it was their decision to ignore me, humiliate me and discard me. And for that there is one rule in life, you reap what you sow. So they will get it back in some or the other way. There will be very few people in this world apart from your parents who will care for you like an idiot. Never let them go. Always make them feel good. Value them and give them the importance they deserve.

I know I know, I should be doing satsang somewhere but I don't want to force people to live my way because they will live my way only in front of me or only to show me. While they will be totally different nature wise. So I will be forcing them to be two faced. Satsang is already making people two faced and I don't want to fall that much for the sake of money. As I am getting older, I am loosing that version of me who finds fun even in the worst situation of life. Anyways, I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has part of my life in last 25 years. Each one of you have taught me some or the other thing.